May 28, 2009

Dark Night

I walk on lonely road
Seeing the sky above
Seeing the dark night
Lonely and dark like black stone
Time is like going nowhere
I know that I must to see again
Sometimes in the dark
I see everything seems
more clearer than daylight
Always remember to feel silence
I open my eyes and ears
Everything is everything
Showing their complete manifestation
Sometimes I disappear in everything
But sometimes when I consider again
Everything is disappear in me
Sometimes I feel lacking
But sometimes I feel complete
Sometimes the sky
pull me out to reach highest place
But sometimes I must lower myself
I must bury myself under the ground

I know there’s something
I must not forget it
Remind where I am here now
Dark night turn to daylight
Night is not always dark
Heart is like the sun
Send the light to everything
What appear in my mind
Clear like crystal ball
Darkness is just empty space
I face narrow road
Road seems never end
I come to final conclusion
There’s nothing I can do
I see everything complete for themselves

If Someone look behind the wall
They think they know everything
But actually not
They know nothing
Everything will comeback
to themselves again
Where is a place to go outside this situation?
They only judge themselves
and make themselves feel bad
Why they are not
try to climb highest place
They will know that sky is limitless
Everything is clear now

Clouds give better appearance to the sky
Why I think like that?
I just see and watch what happening
There’s nothing that block my heart
All clouds are perfect
Let they appear as they wish
I celebrate when they come

Thinking about sadness and happiness
They like a tree sway with the wind
I think is foolish to hold in same position
Come and back, Here and there, Near and far
Stop searching but wait with patiently

See silence as the best place
to know oneself
Time is precious like pearl
I think I must see and feel darkness
Feel the cold wind in the dark night
and I will know the meaning of the light
See everything is black and cold
I let my heart become cold and black
Because if I drowning in a sea of blackness
I can not die in darkness
Darkness make me alive
Darkness can not touch me
And If darkness appear completely
I am free from darkness

May 20, 2009


Sometime simple things
not simple as they appear
Sometimes they are more precious
than anything in the world
Human heart is mysterious thing
Sometimes simple smile
can save someone’s heart
But sometimes simple words
can broke someone’s heart too

I always try to be honest
Maybe someone else not see me like that
Maybe they think I am bad
I know I am bad
I confess my weakness
I don’t need to argue
About good or bad who I m
But within my mind
I always try and try

There’s happiness and there’s sadness too
Human heart always change like window
Sometime open and sometime closed
Why still search permanent thing
This world always changing
Nothing last forever

I climb the mountain
But I am too weak, not strong enough
I fall down from high place
I deserved to this pain
No regret in my heart
I always fall down in the same place
Why I never stop myself to climb the mountain
The mountain is difficult to climb
Too high but still haunts me
I never blame someone or something
I confess my weakness again
Let my heart broken into pieces

It’s useless to search the words
I wish the words will come
without my having asked
I don’t want to show my wound
Let my heart bleed
I lay my body down
No one know where I am
Let the world forget me
I have no power at all
My heart like a broken mirror

I see the sky
The Sky always be there
But sometimes I forget the sky
When I fall down like this
I already know and see The Sky
I am nothing but The Sky is glorious
The Sky always compassion to me
The Sky going down to earth
Only just to help me
Sky raise me up
And show me
How precious I am

I see The Sky again and again
The Sky give smile to me
In the dark night
I see many stars in the sky
Bright and beauty like diamond
Precious but why no one can see
And The Sky show me
How precious I am

I weep for The Sky's grace
I weep to show my happiness
My face soaked with tears
I already fly to sky
Join with the stars
To see the world from distance
and smile to the world
What can I say again?
My true friend always with me
Never abandoned me
Actually I never alone
Always forever
Not alone

May 17, 2009

The Sea Waves

The large waves strike my boat
I think it's difficult to me still on the boat
I try to hold on to the edge of the boat
Fortunately I am still on the boat
But my body soaked with water
I know I must live with the waves

Look around I see the sea only
I don’t want try to see as different
I love the sea
I want to see the sea every day
Why afraid with the waves?
Love of the sea means love its waves

Waves are appear with many form
But I see it’s the same
The waves are manifestation of the sea
Let the waves come
I always long to see the large waves
But sometime I fear about them
There’s nothing that I can do
Anything can be happened
Be honest and be kind for everything

Sea waves will come spontaneously
Let they come as the wish
I give smile to them
“Let the waves come”
I said them again
We are friends
I and the waves
I am alone on this boat
The waves appear to meet me
I appear to meet the waves
We understand each others

I am on the boat
Waves appear over the sea
Nothing of them is real form
They will perish
But the Sea remain the same
The Sea alone always exist

May 16, 2009

Anthem by Deeep Purple (Song Lyric)

When the night wind softly blows through my open window
Then I start to remember the girl that brought me joy
Now the night wind softly blows sadness to tomorrow
Bringing tears to eyes so tired
Eyes I thought could cry no more

If the day would only come
Then you might just appear
even though you'd soon be gone
When I reached out my hand

If I could see you
If only I could see you
To see if you are laughing or crying
When the night winds softly blow

In my dark and whispering room
Memories still bring me a numbness to my feelings
Take my hand and brush my brow
In the warm and fevered dark
Heart is madly beating
My crazy thoughts are burning
When the night winds softly blow

If the day would only come
Then you might just appear
even though you'd soon be gone
When I reached out my hand

If I could see you
If only I could see you
To see if you are laughing or crying
When the night winds softly blow

If the day would only come
Then you might just appear
even though you'd soon be gone
When I reached out my hand

If I could see you
If only I could see you
To see if you are laughing or crying
When the night winds softly blow

May 15, 2009


All the roads are going nowhere
Where to start and begin
Where will them end?
But rain in the outside seems never end
Why will hope to stop it?
I am not going somewhere
I enjoy the rain
and listen its rhythm
with a cup of tea as my friend

In the world of uncertainty
I know nothing
It’s useless to collect many things
All of them will be vanish
And don’t be proud with this body
It will decay and going to earth
Better asking for the rain
To wash everything
Nothing remain
I am nothing
Only dust in the wind

I look up to the sky
and seeing the stars
Always bright in the dark sky
Smile to me with honest
There’s no shadow in their faces
They are always be my friends
I understand what they say
Words, not only just words
Now they are alive
Because they come from the soul
Those words come from the pure heart
All those words will grow
Although in the sand desert

May 13, 2009

The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.


May 11, 2009

Seeing #3

The tree on the hill
The tree sway with the wind
Maybe we don’t see for awhile
We just turn my head
We know that they are still be there
Silver leaves look bright
We always give honest smile
They give me smile too
And we see ourselves in everything

Birds fly to the sky
Never stop to fly
Till they disappear in the clouds
And just a moment
We can not see them again
We see the green grasses
Everything is green
But clouds turn red
Sun give sign to us
We understand what it means
And we see ourselves in everything

We look up to the sky
We see everything is sky
Sky is high and limitless
We see the trees
We see everything is tree
The trees are bright and beauty
We are nothing
But everything actually nothing
A small grain sand is universe
Or Universe in the small grain sand
Clouds are see us
Or We see the clouds
We let our doubt melted
And we see ourselves in everything

Let the rain for us only
Let our body soaked with rain water
Let the sunshine give light for all
We always pray for all
Let the light always be there
May eternal light fills everything
Let the sunshine always bright
And we see ourselves in everything

The road look winding and never end
But we don’t think about that we see
We just follow and believe our heart
The road to our heart is near
Just without effort
We’ve already arrived
And we see ourselves in everything

May 10, 2009

Subaru by Tanimura Shinji (Japanese Song - Lyric & Translation)


With my eyes closed, I see nothing
With sorrow in my heart, I open my eyes
A road heading for the wilderness
And nothing else other than what I see.

Ah, all you stars, destined to shatter into pieces
At least you can quietly shed a light on me

I'll go onwards, even if my cheeks turn pallid
I'll go onwards, bidding farewell to the stars

With every breath I have in my chest,
And the cold wind continues to howl
Even so, my heart holds the passion
To keep on pursuing my dream

Ah, all you stars, each nameless among many,
Glowing gloriously as you shatter into pieces

I'll go onwards, as my heart commands
I'll go onwards, bidding farewell to the stars

Ah, someday, someone will walk this road
Ah, someday, someone will walk this road

I'll go onwards, even if my cheeks turn pallid
I'll go onwards, bidding farewell to the stars.

I'll go onwards, bidding farewell to the stars


Mewo tojite nanimo miezu
Kanashikute mewo akereba
Kooya ni mukau michiyori
Hokani mierumonowa nashi

Ah, kudakechiru sadameno hoshitachiyo
Semete hisoyakani kono miwo teraseyo

Warewa yuku aojiroki hohono mamade
Warewa yuku saraba subaruyo

Ikiwo sureba muneno naka
Kogarashiwa naki tsuzukeru
Saredo wagamunera atsuku
Yumewo oitsuzukeru nari

Ah, sanzameku namonaki hoshitachiyo
Semete azayakani sonomiwo owareyo

Waremo yuku kokorono meizuru mamani
Waremo yuku saraba subaruyo

Chorus: Ah Ah...

Ah, itsuno hika darekaga kono michiwo
Ah, itsuno hika darekaga kono michiwo

Warera yuku aojiroki hohono mamade
Warewa yuku saraba subaruyo

Warewa yuku saraba subaruyo

Translation & lyric source:

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May 7, 2009

Tomorrow will be better/ Ming tian hui geng hao (Song Lyric)


I think this song very inspiring and full of positive spirit.
Sometime in the morning,we feel pain in our heart because
we face the world with routine and the same.Everything
that we do seems become burden but this song
showing us with these words "..When
you wake up in the morning....A newborn sun is shinning
Chasing shadows from your mind.Everything will be alive,
under the sunshine's smile..." and positive words
"..I know you'll do.We pray and believe that
Tomorrow will be better..."


Lyric :Tomorrow will be better

When you wake up in the morning
When you haven't started to think
There is a whole brand new day
Open wide and waiting for you
I know in life's sorrow,
you're on the verge of drowning
May your tears flea with yesterday
blow away with the wind

When you wake up in the morning
When you haven't started to think
The world is out there calling open
eyes to new beginning
A newborn sun is shinning
Chasing shadows from your mind
Everything will be alive,
under the sunshine's smile

Come out from your corner
No doubt in join us
You can decide the future
Devote your youthful power to this world
Come together, hand in hand together
I know you'll do
We pray and believe
that tomorrow will be better.

No, I don't know what your name is
But you're so familiar to me
Cause we belong to one family
You can hear my heart calling
Life can be music,
rainbows can be reached
If you face yourself truly
keep striving for your dream

Come out from your corner
No doubt in join us
You can decide the future
Devote your youthful power to this world
Come together, hand in hand together
I know you'll do
We pray and believe
that tomorrow will be better.

When you wake up in the morning
When you haven't started to think
There is a whole brand new day
Open wide and waiting for you
I know in life's sorrow,
you're on the verge of drowning
May your tears flea with yesterday
blow away with the wind

Come out from your corner
No doubt in join us
You can decide the future
Devote your youthful power to this world
Come together, hand in hand together
I know you'll do
We pray and believe
that tomorrow will be better.

Come out from your corner
No doubt in join us
You can decide the future
Devote your youthful power to this world
Come together, hand in hand together
I know you'll do
We pray and believe
that tomorrow will be better.

Come out from your corner
No doubt in join us
You can decide the future
Devote your youthful power to this world
Come together, hand in hand together
I know you'll do
We pray and believe
that tomorrow will be better.

English Version by Att9
Mandarin Version by Various Artists

May 6, 2009


We don’t need to do something
Just like see the leafs flying follow the wind blow
We don’t want to predict where they are going to
The world is mysterious place
It is not seems appear that we see everyday

Maybe we see the sea
But actually we don’t know about the sea
We only see the surface of the sea
Not the sea with its fullness
The sea is unfathomable

When our ship was broken on the sea
And we have no strength to swim
Our effort is useless
We don’t need to swim
And there’s no need to reach the shore
We just let ourselves doing nothing
We relax ourselves then we will float
And when our time has come
We know the meaning of the sea
We live in the sea and die in the sea

Sitting beside the window to see outside
We only see sand desert
But our heart feel amazed
Cause we see water & green trees
Maybe our heart tempt to go there
So tempting and difficult to resist
But we do nothing & lose our hope
And accept what appear before us
Maybe we have no strength at all
Let the illusion appear or disappear
Just tell our heart about this illusion
Illusion is illusion

If we walk to go outside
And drink mirage water
There’s danger to follow desire
Don’t depend with illusion
All that we see actually is not real
Because it will hammer our heart
We will fall down and crawl
There’s terrible pain in our heart and eyes
And we can not see clearly the road
But time will always show the way to return
Be careful not to go outside
We already learn how pain to follow the shadows
But after we realize and think about it again
There’s nothing happen
We still sitting beside the window
And enjoy to drink a hot cup of tea
Feel blessed and gratitude in our heart
Simple and perfect

If we walk on desert
We feel hot, tired and thirst
We see the Caravan not so far
We call them and ask for help
We say to them that we need the water
But they don’t give us some water at all
On the contrary they instruct a lion
To catch and bite us
They leave us alone on the desert
Luckily we still alive
And return to go home safely
But when we remember this thing
We don’t hate the desert
We don’t hate the lion
We don't blame Caravan
But we thanks to them
Cause they already teach us about illusion
We feel this illusion in naked face
And never forget to love
For everything have already passed
Always compassion for everything
There's nothing left in our heart
But we always love in our heart
Pure heart embrace everything
Maybe dark clouds still there
See them with smile on our face

We remember about the desert
And dangerous creatures inside it
They are illusion
They are created by our mind
We have known that there’s no outside and inside
We always in our home
All the places around the world are our home
We are the sun that shine the world
We don’t need the light anymore
We are the light and always bright
Why we forget about our real nature
We always here
Why going to desert?
There’s no water on the sand
In our home everything is perfect
Nothing that harm us
Every place is our home
Near and perfect

May 2, 2009


I walk on the lonely road
In the night time
Feel the wind blow gently touch my face
I walk with slowly
I don’t miss all that I see
Everything is perfect

See the trees beside the road
Their leaves are bright under streetlight
Seeing puddles on the road
Reflecting image of the tree
I listen to crickets and frogs sing

I see the sky is dark
But I still see the crescent moon and a small stars
Limit my seeing is within sky limit
But I never forget to see the green grasses
I praise all of them in my heart
Such wonderful things

I remember the days has gone
But I can not find my past time
Each time has passed leave no trace
But present time is complete for itself
Time change everything
My body will change and decay
I see myself is the same
I am always I am

I never shut the door
The door always open
Everything may come in
Everything may come out
I give greeting with open heart

I read many books
I think many things too much
But now I realize
I know nothing
I search no more
Stop search the words
It’s better see the green trees
And enjoy listen birds chirp

People sometimes say with certitude
Later they change their opinion
But I don’t blame them
Everything is transient
They talk about impermanent things
I let them say anything
I just listen

It’s useless to change the weather
Sometimes rain and
Sometimes sun so bright
Which one is good one?
I don’t know about good and bad
I think it’s better change my heart
I know my limitation

The mirage water look real
The water of the sea is limitless
But they can not quench my thirst
Only tears of gratitude can quench my thirst
Everything is complete and perfect
In childhood we strove to go to school,
Our turn to teach, joyous as a rule
The end of the story is sad and cruel
From dust we came, and gone with winds cool.
Omar Khayyam
Translate by Shahriar Shahriari.

James by Billy Joel (Song Lyric)

Comment :

This song remind me when I have passed
my high school and continue to choose
field of study in the university....
Sometimes we choose not for ourselves
But Sometimes we choose to please someone else
There's nothing bad or good in this situation
Cause all situation that we have decided,
We must accept it and think is good
We choose how we live
But If we don't choose then we have chosen
All that we have done,nothing is bad
There's something good in there
Life and feel gratitude for this moment
and choose now the best that we think is the best


Song Lyric :James

James...we were always friends,
From our childhood days
And we made our plans,
And we had to go our seperate ways.
I went on the road-
You pursued an education. you like your life,
Can you find release,
And will you ever change-
Will you ever write your masterpiece.
Are you still in school-
Living up to expectations...James...

You were so relied upon,
everybody knows how hard you tried-
Hey...just look at what a job you've done,
Carrying the weight of family pride.'ve been well behaved,
You've been working so hard
But will you always stay-
Someone else's dream of who you are.
Do what's good for you,
or you're not good for anybody...James.

I went on the road-
You pursued an education...James...
How you gonna know for sure-
everything was so well organized. everything is so secure,
and everybody else is satisfied. you like your life,
Can you find release
And will you ever change,
When will you write your masterpiece.
Do what's good for you,
or you're not good for anybody...James...

The Light #3

Sun shines bright now
Always enjoy this moment
See the sky without borders
We see nothing in there
See empty clouds only
What a wonderful landscape

Let life flow without hindrance
Just enjoy simple things
Take a deep breath to feel fresh air
Without feeling regret in our mind
When we look back again,
We see the Light only
Nothing is useless now
Nothing to regret in our heart
We don’t want to justify or blame it
Those moments were perfect moments
Everything is perfect

We just try to be humble
We are nothing but dust
Like a sand in the desert
See around for awhile
Let everything flow
We see ourselves flow in there
We are within universe
But our heart is beautiful place
Heart is beautiful mirror to see universe
We don’t claim ours more real than other
Maybe someone see everything is dark
Or someone see everything is bright
But we don’t argue with them
Maybe they laugh at us
At glimpse we see their heart
There is ice in their laughter*
But we know our mistake immediately
Laughter always beauty in beautiful heart
Why we think like that to our friends?
We repentance cause our weakness
Be humble and return again
See our beautiful mirror not theirs
Everything is beauty and perfect

Don’t be upset for the words that they say
Let they say what they want to say
We be at home and safe
Praise and give prayer to them
So many people in the world
Listen their words like a echo
Every words become empty meaning
We are the light and give the light
Always give prayer for everyone
Put a smile upon our face
Be free and calm always
Let Inner Light become our guide
Always believe inside us
And we see all beauty of things
actually lies before us

Don’t worry about anything
We release our hope about the things
Nothing is more precious than our heart
It’s better we always see the morning sun
Or see the moonlight
Or see the stars in the night sky above
Our heart will bright and beauty
Look everything before us more clearer
There’s gold lies on our table
Why we search mirage
Maybe there's something that we ignore,
Actually that we need and good for us
The window always open
Let the sunlight shine into the our heart
We see the light and give the light
Light and nothing but light

They understand me not: I am not the mouth for these ears.
Too long, perhaps, have I lived in the mountains; too much have I
hearkened unto the brooks and trees: now do I speak unto them as
unto the goatherds.
Calm is my soul, and clear, like the mountains in the morning. But
they think me cold, and a mocker with terrible jests.
And now do they look at me and laugh: and while they laugh they hate
me too.* There is ice in their laughter."

by Friedrich Nietzsche
Translated by Thomas Common

Sunday, April 26, 2009 at 11:38pm


Green leaves like silver bright pearl
Everything look bright and perfect
Sun always give us the light
Seeing light beam on surface of the things
Feel amazing for everything that we see

We let our hope melted
Just surrender our heart
And feel God’s grace
Rain arrive abruptly
Praise for the rain
But we see the sun look brighter
So take a deep breath
And feel fresh air
Our mind will expand
Be open like sky

We see ourselves in all
Or All within ourselves
We don’t try to explain
Only simple smile in our lips
The truth is simple
Our heart is serene
We need nothing
Everything is complete

Take a look at to the sky
There's nothing that we see
Only limitless sky
We meditate how small we are
Maybe we don't see the stars anymore
Will we miss them?
There’s no time to remember
We’ve seen emptiness of all the things
We’ve already walked million miles
Only small stones can not stop our journey
And when we try to see again
Knowing they do not exist
We don’t walk to move on
And don’t use our feet again
We just see our destination
And we’ve already arrived

Desert is dry and hot
And cover only by the sands
But we can not see it as significant thing
Our place in the grave yard
Small place to enjoy and forget everything
Our journey is ended in the grave yard
Everything already have gone
Open our heart and look around
We know what we do now
Something that we know before
Maybe is not important anymore
All books cannot explain it
Open the book and we don't get the meaning
We release everything and
Everything will release us

When we look up to the sky
Maybe we can not see the sun
Sometimes night have the moon and star
There’s something mysterious
But we speak too much
Let moving when the sun set
We see the sun set in the red sky
We keep awake
Don't sleep anymore
There's nothing behind everything
but The One
Not knowing this, we've lost
and lost in the center means lost everything
Keep and watch our heart
We'll safe

Are we traveling alone?
Can we meet another traveler?
Let's time give the best answer
We don’t want philosopher's stone
We just want see the black stone
When the night is black
Sun have a meaning to us
And our heart will pray
May peace be upon to us all

Thursday, April 23, 2009 at 7:53am

Serene Heart

Mist on the lake in the morning
Cold wind gently touch our face
Seeing lake and hill beside the road
Wind blow over the surface of water
Ripples on the water appear continuous
It is easy to find the silent place
But it is difficult to find peace of heart
Search outside ourselves
It can not fulfill our thirst
Let lake in our heart be calm and clear
Then we can see what world as it is
See our face without bias
Accept the world like open sky
Praise for the rain when come
Just look with our heart
Best place that we love
Serene heart

Our mind always unrest
Gently touch make thoughts ripple out
But we know their rhythm
Thoughts are not reflecting the reality
They are shadows of our mind
We don’t search or hide from these shadows
We let them still there and pass on
Praise them like meet our old best friend
Shadows appear as empty appearance
Reality always be here and kind
We know reality always that we love
Serene heart

Our narrow assumption make us blind
We cover that we see with many assumptions
Everything become a projection of our fears and hopes
See everything around us clearly
Let they talk for themselves
We must listen carefully to know their beauty
Always praise the beauty of the things
Give prayer for the happiness of all people
Then we can see that all the best will return
Receive all kind things in the place that we love
Serene Heart

We must rely only on ourselves
Sometimes when we close to someone else
We make our assumption and too much hope
If we give flowers too much water then they would die
We feel disappointed and blame everything
Why we don’t let the flower bloom?
Let the flowers enjoy the fresh rain water
Nature know the best how to harmonize with everything
We always pray and praise their beauty
Butterflies always fly around the flowers
Fly as they wish and free
See flowers bloom but accept them when withered
Bloom and withered are part of us
Let everything flow
We let ourselves always in the best place
Serene Heart

See the sun look small in the sky above
But we know that we see is wrong
Distance making an object look smaller
Distance is relative
Our heart not depend with our seeing
Enjoy the sun when they arise
But don’t hate sunset
We already know how to behave at someone
Give prayer for their happiness
Be open like space to let they walk as they please
We are alone to do this but our heart full of joy
Serene Heart

Remember the good times or bad times
It’s seem like yesterday although a long time ago
But we know everything will disappear
Like river going to the sea
We can not reach and catch them again
It's better to see our memories as they are
They are always best in that place
When they appear in our mind
We enjoy them as if the time is moving
Past & future only be experienced in the present moment
Always grateful this present moment

We see our old picture on the wall
Longtime standing there
We have precious life
When we see the past
So many that we see actually
Life is wonderful
Sometime seeing smile of a child
Sometime seeing stranger with sad face
Now, we see nothing at all
Our mirror already broken
And we can not see our face
We don’t search happiness in the mirror
There’s no use mirror again
We have our real face
Real face that never changes
Bright & warm like in the morning sun

We try remember our promises
Before we are born into the world
When our soul in eternity
Search the meaning our life in this world
Be silent in our mouth
But keep busy to repeat
All holy words in our heart
Feel the sweetness and peace
Serene heart

Sometimes between our feeling and thought are not consistent
We reject the one and choose another one
We will fight with ourselves
Maybe it’s time for us to take a rest
We see our face on the pool of water
Reflection on the water always many faces
Cause we see on the water ripple
Image of faces always changes but water still there
Don’t think about again

Maybe we think that every thing become black
But we don’t mind when the night sky is black
As we talk to someone
We hope they listen to what we say
But they only silent
It doesn’t meant they didn’t hear
Maybe we talk not from within our heart
Or we say something that they don’t understand
Let our heart always be happy and peace
Bury our own body on the earth
Let our body touch the earth
We know when the time has come
This body will merge with the earth
And we know we are nothing
Nothing but dust
And we know our real nature
The Light

Saturday, April 18, 2009 at 4:20am

The Light #2

As I walk in the morning
I see the sun covered by fog
I praise to the sun and say:
“Your light is bright and beauty
You give the light to everything”

Sun whisper in my ear
Sun praise me too:
“My light is coming from you
My beauty is a only reflection yourself”

I reply to the sun:
“I’ve search within my self
I didn’t find the light within me
My body so weak and fragile
I am composed of blood and skin only
I see nothing but a dark substance “

Sun whisper in my ear again:
“You are everything
I am here only for you
My light is your light
You are more than you know
There’s deep secret within you
This secret place is within your heart
Surrender yourself
Try to search again
You can see The Light
This Eternal light always shine in your heart ”

I am dumbfound
I bow to the light within me
Even though I think that I am nothing
There’s hidden treasure in myself
Always show me who I am
Happiness raise within me
It bring tears of joy to my eyes
My faces soaked of tears
I put smile on my face
Grace and peace fill my heart

As I see on the outside
I see the light within
As I see within my self
I see the light on the outside
Give Light to everything
May The Light give The Light to all


He is overflowing with God's light --
he has broken the cup of the body, he is Absolute Light.
(The Sufi Path of Love: The Spiritual Teachings of Rumi, p. 314)

Sometimes in order to help He makes us cry.
Happy the eye that sheds tears for His sake.
Fortunate the heart that burns for His sake.
Laughter always follows tears.
Blessed are those who understand.
Life blossoms wherever water flows.
Where tears are shed divine mercy is shown.
( Rumi in Mathnawi)

The house of the heart that remains without
illumination from the rays of the Magnificent Sun
is narrow and dark like a miser's soul, empty of
the Loving King's sweet taste. The Sun's light
does not shine in that heart, space does not expand,
doors do not open: The grave would be more
pleasant for you -- so come, arise from the tomb of your heart!
(The Sufi Path of Love: The Spiritual Teachings of Rumi)

To praise is to praise how one surrenders to the emptiness.
To praise the sun is to praise your own eyes.
(The Essential Rumi,Translations by Coleman Barks with John Moyne)

Wednesday, April 15, 2009 at 1:53am

The Faces

Take time to remember what we have done
Heart is the best place where we stay
Why is running around to another block?
Just open our eyes and look around
Seeing our face on the pool of water
We see the full moon still there
Drops of water on green leaf
Light through the windows
Maybe somebody telling us many things
But we only hear the wind blow on the tree
A chirp of bird maybe it’s easy to understand
For the first time we understand what we hear
Gratitude with our life
Living in the present moment
Be honest with ourselves and listen

Disregard everything that hinder our heart
Don’t try to be feel important and be humble
We throw it all away useless proud
See the people around us and give smile
Maybe they ignore us but our heart always smile
Nothing is ever lose and smile still remain
Happiness bloom in our heart
So many things still waiting for our greeting
See the white floor and gray wall
Simple and easy to see
Let everything fly with their nature
We see everything from within
Have faith within ourselves
Don’t think everything but see
Just let our mind become candle our seeing

We have met so many people
Each of them have many faces
They’re change their faces moment to moment
Don’t attach for each one of them
Memory & hope will bury ourselves
It’s not important to think about
There’s great maxim in the world that we remind
Everything is impermanent
We repeat in our heart this holy words
Everything will be destroyed except His Face.

People always change like rainbow
Time changes everything
When we met our old friends
Maybe we were feel so close, but so far apart
Sometimes when we separate from them
So far apart but close at heart
Human heart is difficult to fathom
We always identify ourselves with ‘things’ that we have
We are human and always change
We think we are still the same,
Maybe someone say we are change
But we think they are changes too
What can we say now?
Just give smile in our heart

We forget what they says and let’s passing by
Everything will flow wherever they please
Like water run dry in summer and there’s no trace remain
Praise and blame from others are sick of words
Maybe right or wrong but we don’t need to argue again
Ask no more and we must avoid them
We must stop ourselves and take a rest
Always remember in our mind
"That the life of this world is but play
and amusement, pomp and mutual boasting
and multiplying....And what is the life of this world,
but goods and chattels of deception?"

See the spider web on the wall over the window
So many times we met but we don’t see it
Everything disappear before our eyes
Actually this spider web always there
Let our mind telling special story and memory
Like movie projector displaying moving pictures on the screen
All moving pictures have not essence actually
All pictures already lost on projecting screen
We just watch this empty appearance
Nothing what we know is real
Everything is changing

See the stars in the sky
So distant and so far away from us
Everything else will lost become dust
We are so small and nothing special in this universe
So small in the sand desert of time
We are nothing and life is fleeting
All the world that we are created will lost
We are standing alone like a tree on the hill
All that we know we are here to accept our destiny
We will face The Unlimited Merciful alone
And we disappear into nothingness
Everything will be destroyed except His Face

0 God, deliver us from preoccupation with worldly vanities,
and show us the nature of things ' as they really are.
Remove from our eyes veil of ignorance, and show things
as they really are. Show not to us non-existence as existent,
nor cast the veil of non-existence over the beauty of existence.
Make this phenomenal world the mirror to reflect the manifestations
of Thy beauty, not a veil to separate and repel us from Thee.
Cause these unreal phenomena of the universe to be for us
the sources of knowledge and insight, and not the cause
of ignorance and blindness. Our alienation and severance
from Thy beauty all proceed from ourselves.Deliver us from
ourselves, and accord to us intimate knowledge of Thee....
From Lawai'h by Abdul-Rahman al-Jami

__All that lives on earth or in the heavens is bound to pass away(Q:55:26)
__Everything will be destroyed except His Face.(Q: 28:88)__
__Know ye (all), that the life of this world is but play
and amusement, pomp and mutual boasting and multiplying,
(in rivalry) among yourselves, riches and children.
Here is a similitude: How rain and the growth which it brings forth,
delight (the hearts of) the tillers; soon it withers; thou wilt see it grow yellow;
then it becomes dry and crumbles away. ...And what is the life of
this world, but goods and chattels of deception? (Q:57.20)

Monday April 13,2009, at 2:03am

The Light #1

When we walk through narrow road
A long and winding road
We see the sky is dark
Rain in the night seems never stop
We think it is difficult to move on
Don’t think like that
We are not going anywhere
There’s nothing to reach
Just rest ourselves on the shade of tree
Let hear sound of the rain
See the ripples of water on the road
See dark night without clouds
We are going to sleep
And then the dawn will come abruptly
Morning sun rises brightly
Giving the light to everything

When we wake from sleep
We realize all that we see it’s only a dream
Where is narrow and winding road?
We still in our bed now
Smile appear in our face
Why so stupid who we are
All that we see in dream is not real
We must see everything like shadows
All the things not the seem appear
See the real one and forget the dream
Dream is darkness and Real is the Light

Don’t be deceived with external things
Sometimes memories and thoughts bother us
Maybe our heart still tempting to follow them
Sometimes it is not easy to resist
But we must surrender ourselves
Let the false light disappear
We know our weakness
Let the real Light appear within us
Let everything appear and melted
Don’t try to catch them
Don’t search inside and outside
Realize here and now
Giving the light to everything

It seems we don’t get the nectar
But we ignore all result
Let enjoy everything that appear
Sometimes we feel uneasiness and pain
Sometimes we feel please in our heart
But we don’t reject or accept
No matter what we feel
See what we feel with open eyes
We are not what we feel
Nectar or not will be the same
Never give up and trust the Light within
See the clouds in the blue sky
Nothing hinder them to appear as they are
Sun feels hot and too bright now
Just sit under tree again
Let’s enjoy seeing the flower beside the road

We still feel doubt remain in our heart
Maybe we have already try with honest
We always feel the same
All that we have done look in vain
We always trapped in the same place
Never regret about that
We are human and only human
Weakness always be part of us
Never regret cause nothing to be regretted
Just accept everything and be kind
We loose our hope to the light of the sun
We believe and relying ourselves to the Light within
Let the Light within will shine
Actually no within and without
There’s Light and nothing but Light


“O Allah, place light in my heart, light in my sight,
light in my hearing, light on my right hand,
light on my left hand, light above me, light below me,
light in front of me, light behind me,
and enhance light for me “
- Siddiqi, A. H. Kitab al-salat.
Chapter CCLXVIII. Supplication in the
night prayer. In: Sahih Muslim Vol. I

Allah is the Light of the heavens and the earth.
The Parable of His Light is as if there were a Niche and
within it a Lamp: the Lamp enclosed in Glass: the glass as
it were a brilliant star: Lit from a blessed Tree,
an Olive, neither of the east nor of the west,
whose oil is well-nigh luminous, though fire scarce touched it:
Light upon Light!
Allah doth guide whom He will to His Light:
Allah doth set forth Parables for men: and Allah doth know all things.
__Q: Al-Noor (The Light) 024.035

Tuesday,April 7, 2009 at12:06am

Present Moment - Selected Quotes

My friend, let's not think of tomorrow,enjoy this fleeting moment of life.
Be happy for this moment.This moment is your life -Omar Khayam-

I stayed with the people of tasawuf and learned two things from them.
First is that they say time is like a sword if you don't cut with it,
it will Cut you. Second is your self, if you don't keep it busy with right,
it will make you busy with wrong - Imam Shafi'ee

Be contended with what you posses in life,be thankful for
what does not belong to you,for it is so much care the less,
but try to obtain what you need in life and make
the best of every moment of your life - Hazrat Inayat Khan

What I am anxious it is because I am living in the future.When I am
depressed it is because I am living in the past - Author of unknown

The sole life which a man can lose is that which he is living
at the moment - Marcus Aurelius

Yesterday's the past and tomorrow's the future. Today is a gift -
which is why they call it the present -Author of unknown

Life can be found only in the present moment. The past is gone,
the future is not yet here,and if we do not go back to ourselves
in the present moment, we cannot be in touch with life -Thich Nhat Hanh

Life isn't measured in minutes but in moments - The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past,
not to worry about the future, or not to anticipate troubles,
but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind
on the present moment - Buddha

How to be at peace now? By making peace with the present moment.
The present moment is the field on which the game of life happens.
It cannot happen anywhere else - Eckhart Tolle

Let anyone try, I will not say to arrest, but to notice or to attend to,
the present moment of time. One of the most baffling experiences occurs.
Where is it, this present? It has melted in our grasp,
fled ere we could touch it, gone in the instant of becoming -William James

Time is not a line, but a series of now-points - Taisen Deishimaru

I have realized that past and future are real illusion,
that theyexist in the present which is what there is and
all there is -Allan Watts

Sunday, April 5, 2009 at 9:37am

Sitting in the Orchard by Rumi

A man sits in an orchard, fruit trees full
and the vines plump. He has his head
on his knee; his eyes are closed.

His friend says, “Why stay sunk in mystical
meditation when the world is like this?
Such visible grace.”

He replies, “This outer is an elaboration
of the inner. I prefer the origin.”
Natural beauty is a tree limb reflected
in the water of a creek, quivering there, not

The growing that moves in the soul
is more real than tree limbs and reflections.
We laugh and feel happy or sad over all this.
Try instead to get a scent
of the true orchard.
Taste the vineyard
within the vineyard.

Translated by Coleman Barks


You personify God's message.
You reflect the King's face.
There is nothing in the universe that you are not
Everything you want, look for it within yourself--
you are that.

I see so deeply within myself.
Not needing my eyes, I can see everything clearly.
Why would I want to bother my eyes again
Now that I see the world through His eyes?

Translated by Shahram Siva

Thursday, April 2, 2009 at 2:32am

Story of the Tenth Men

Ten foolish men forded a stream and on reaching the other shore
wanted to make sure that all of them had in fact safely crossed
the stream. One of the ten began to count, but while counting
others left himself out. "I see only nine; we have lost one.
Who can it be ?" he said. "Did you count correctly?" asked another,
and did the counting himself. But he too counted only nine.

One after the other, each each of the ten counted only nine, missing himself.
"We are only nine, they all agreed, "but who is the missing one?"
they asked themselves. Every effort they made to discover
the 'missing' individual failed. "Whoever he is that is drowned,"
said the most sentimental of ten fools, "we have lost him."

So saying, he burst into tears, and the rest of the nine followed suit.
Seeing them, weeping on the river bank , a sympathetic wayfarer
inquired for the cause. They related what had happened and said that
even after counting themselves several times they could find no more than nine.
On hearing the story, but seeing all the ten before him, the wayfarer
guessed what had happened.

In order to make them know for themselves
that they were really ten, that all of them had come safe from the crossing,
he told them, " Let each of you count for himself but one after the other
serially, one, two three and so on, while I shall give you each a blow so that
all of you may be sure of having been included in the count, and included
only once. The tenth 'missing' man will then be found."

Hearing this, they rejoiced at the prospect of finding their "lost" comrade
and accepted the method suggested by the wayfarer. While the wayfarer
gave a blow to each of the ten in turn, he that got the blow counted himself aloud.
" Ten", said the last man as he got the last blow in his turn.
Bewildered, they looked at one another. We are ten, " they said with
one voice and thanked the wayfarer for having removed their grief.

As told by Ramana Maharshi

Thursday, April 2, 2009 at 1:58am

Sitting by window

We feel cold at this night
Let’s drink a cup of hot water
Our stomach feels warm
This is a special event
We feel like never drink before
See the stars in the night sky
They’ll always be there
Small and bright in dark sky

People always forget themselves
They always talk about changing things
Listen what they say
We just listen
Nothing that we can do
Only watch our mind
Listen melodious song within our heart

We are like leaves on the tree
Sometime green and sometime gray
All of them will soon disappear
Time is always choose the best
Gray and green leaves are the same
We don’t know which the wind will blow
Leaves falling around the tree
No matter how far they fly
All leaves falling to the earth

How long can we live?
We are humans
Fragile and weak
Can we remember words that we say?
We’ve always broken our promises
Always talk with mouth only
Eternal vows are meaningless and empty words
Always humble with ourselves
We make plans but God knows best
Always repent of our weakness
Return again and watch our heart
Don’t say a words
Better learn to keep silence
Silence is golden

Nothing can bother us
Sun always smile everyday
Birds always fly among treetops
Don’t show gold that we have
Don’t seduce a thief to steal
Let’s enjoying the moon
Who can steal the moon?
Shadow come in the high place
Cold of the wind on top of mountain
Nothing to say again
Our lips are sealed
We are ready to sleep

When the flowers bloom on a wooden fence
Maybe no one see them
But flowers will bloom
Not depend to us to see
Like flowers in the sky
Nothing seems real
We have defect in our eyes
Sky is pure
Flowers in the sky will bloom and wither
Sometimes illusion look beauty
But we know in our heart
They will appear and subside for themselves
Like nothing happen

Look over there
Sitting by window
We feel sad about their condition
We sympathize with them
We talk to someone that we care
But we care for what?
Sometimes we always find a reason to please ourselves
Sometimes it’s easy to find a reason to be sad
So many hidden motive in our heart
So many creatures in the deep sea
if we don’t know then we will forget ourselves
We are controlled by external things
Like the puppet in the hand of a child
We think we help someone
But actually someone help us
We always watch ourselves
We know our weakness
We know ourselves and see within our heart
There’s nothing to worry about it
Cause we can catch the fishes immediately

Maybe we make some mistakes again
Always forget our happiness within
Looking at other people like foam on the ocean
We smiles to depth of our heart
We always pray to them
May all human beings be happy
We listen what they say
But we listen to our heart too
We pray for their happiness
We are shadows behind everything

Don’t think too much
Blood and skin is impermanent
Don’t see their body only
There is soul within these body
We always know
Every soul is beauty
They come from eternity
Body and skin belong to earth alone
We are dust in the wind
Nothing it’s real
Nothing to be proud of
Birds chirp always same but they are honest
Never forget their promises
Always be there
We just give simple smile again
And keep silent again
Be ourselves
Always be here
Sitting by window

Tuesday, March 31, 2009 at 3:55am

I Wish/Free by Lighthouse Family (Song Lyric)

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
I wish I could say all the things that I should say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

I wish I could share
All the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars that keep us apart
And I wish you could know how it is to be me
Then you'd see and agree that
every man should be free

I wish I could be like a bird in the sky
How sweet it would be if I found I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and look down at the sea
And I'd sing cos I know how it feels to be free

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
And I wish I could say all the
things that I wanna say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

One love one blood
One life you've got to do what you should
One life with each other
Sisters, brothers

One love but we're not the same
We got to carry each other Carry each other
One One One One One...

I knew how it would feel to be free
I knew how it would feel to be free

Sunday, March 29, 2009 at 10:00pm

Sahl al-Tostari on Dhikr

I was three years old when I began to pray all night.
My uncle Mohammad ibn Sawwar wept to see me pray.
“Sahl, go to sleep. You make me anxious,” he said.
I kept watch on my uncle secretly and openly.
Then matters reached the point that one day I said to him,
“Uncle, I have a hard state to contend with. I seem to see my head
prostrate before the Throne.”
“Keep this state secret, my boy, and tell no one,” he advised. Then he added,
“Recollect when you are in your bed clothes rolling from side to side. As your
tongue moves, say,
‘God is with me, God is watching over me, God is witnessing me.’
I used this formula, and informed my uncle so.
“Say the words seven times each night,” he counseled me.
I informed him that I had done so.
“Say them fifteen times.”
I did as my uncle directed, and a sweetness invaded my heart therefrom.
A year passed. Then my uncle said,
“Keep my instructions and continue that practice until you go to the grave.
The fruits thereof will be yours in this world and the next.”
Years passed, and I used the same formula until the sweetness of it penetrated
my most secret heart.

Tadhkirat al-Auliya’ by Farid al-Din Attar

Sahl said to one of his disciples: Strive to say continuously for one day:
"O Allah! O Allah! O Allah!" and do same next day and the day after that -
until he became habituated to saying those words.
The he bade him to repeat them at night also,until they became so familiar
that he uttered them even during his sleep.
Then he said:"Do not repeat them anymore,but let all your faculties be engrossed
in remembering God!" The disciple did this, until he became absorbed in the thought
of God.One day,when he was in his house, a piece of wood fell on his head
and broke it.The drop of blood which trickled to the ground bore the legend
" Allah! Allah! Allah!

Kasyful Mahjub by Hujwiri

Saturday, March 28, 2009 at 12:11am

Selected Poetry of Ryokan Taigu (1758–1831)

If someone asks what is the mark of enlightenment or illusion,
I cannot say -- wealth and honor are nothing but dust,
As the evening rain falls, I sit in my hermitage
And stretch out both feet in answer.

The ridicule or praise of worldly people means nothing
This is an old truth; don't think it was discovered recently.
"I want this, I want that"
Is nothing but foolishness.
I'll tell you a secret:
All things are impermanent.

I have nothing to report, my friends.
If you want to find the meaning,
Stop chasing after so many things.

Why do you so earnestly seek the truth in distant places?
Look for delusion and truth in the bottom of your own hearts.

In my youth I put aside my studies
And I aspired to be a saint.
Living austerely as a mendicant monk,
I wandered here and there for many springs.
Finally I returned home to settle under a craggy peak.
I live peacefully in a grass hut,
Listening to the birds for music.
Clouds are my best neighbors.
Below a pure spring where I refresh body and mind;
Above, towering pines and oaks that provide shade and brushwood.
Free, so free, day after day --
I never want to leave!


Yes, I’m truly a dunce
Living among trees and plants.
Please don’t question me about illusion and enlightenment --
This old fellow just likes to smile to himself.
I wade across streams with bony legs,
And carry a bag about in fine spring weather.
That’s my life,
And the world owes me nothing.


First days of spring -- the sky
is bright blue, the sun huge and warm.
Everything's turning green.
Carrying my monk's bowl, I walk to the village
to beg for my daily meal.
The children spot me at the temple gate
and happily crowd around,
dragging to my arms till I stop.
I put my bowl on a white rock,
hang my bag on a branch.
First we braid grasses and play tug-of-war,
then we take turns singing and keeping a kick-ball in the air:
I kick the ball and they sing, they kick and I sing.
Time is forgotten, the hours fly.
People passing by point at me and laugh:
"Why are you acting like such a fool?"
I nod my head and don't answer.
I could say something, but why?
Do you want to know what's in my heart?
From the beginning of time: just this! just this!

Friday, March 27, 2009 at 11:31pm

Sentimental Swordsman (Excerpts) by Gulong

Since I was a teenager ,I always like to read wuxia novel (Chinese martial art novel)
especially novel from Gu Long (Stories of Lu Xiao Feng [陆小凤系列],Feng Yun Di Yi Dao
[风云第一刀], & Jin Yong (Shen Diao Xia Lu [神雕侠侣] & She Diao Ying Xiong Zhuan
[射雕英雄传] )....
But I always like Gu Long style and one of my favorite is
Sentimental Swordsman, Ruthless Sword
(Xiao Li Fei Dao [小李飞刀] / Feng Yun Di Yi Dao [风云第一刀]
This below ,excerpt from that novel.....
Friends,if you like , you just continue and follow this link:

Chapter 1: Flying Dagger vs. Quick Sword
The cold wind act as a knife, using the ground as the cutting board, and people as fish meat.
The snowstorm extends for thousands of miles, making everything seem like bright white silver.
In this cold winter snowstorm, a horse carriage came from the north. Its wheels shattered the snow on the ground, but cannot shatter loneliness in the world.

Li Xun Huan yawned, trying to stretch his legs. The inside of the carriage might be quite comfortable, but this trip is just way too long, too lonely.He feels not only exhausted, but also irritated.
He feels that loneliness is the biggest annoyance in his life, yet loneliness frequently accompanies him.

A person's life is usually filled with contradictions. No one can do anything about this.
Li Xun Huan sighed and took out a wine bottle. As he's drinking the wine, he also begins to cough.
His continuous coughing made his pale face appear very sick, as if fire from Hell is burning
his flesh and soul.The wine bottle is empty now, so he grabbed a little dagger and start to carve a wooden human figure. The dagger is thin and sharp, his hand is long and powerful.

The figure is that of a woman, so beautiful and warm under his masterful carving,
looking so full of life.He not only gave her a striking look, but also gave her life and soul,
only because his life and soul is already quietly disappearing under the tip of the dagger.
He's no longer young.Wrinkles filled the corners of his eyes, every wrinkle filled with
all the joy and sadness in his life. Only his eyes are young.This is a strange pair of eyes,
a shade of green, similar to the Spring wind blowing on the Willow leaves, warm and flexible.
Or similar to the sea water under the Summer sun's light, filled with energy.

Maybe it's only because of this pair of eyes that allowed him to live till today.
The wooden figure is finally finished. He mindlessly stared at this figure,
not knowing for how long, and then pushed the carriage door open, jumping out.
The carriage driver immediately stopped the horses.
This carriage driver's eyes are sharp like a eagle, but as those eyes looked at Li Xun Huan, they immediately became warm, filled with loyalty and sympathy. Like a beast looking at its master.

Li Xun Huan dug a hole on the ground, burying the figure he just carved into that hole.
Then he just mindlessly stared at the pile of snow where he buried the figure.
His fingers have now been frozen, his face red from the cold, and snowflakes covered
his whole body. Yet he does not feel the cold. The item buried under the snow is like
the most important person in his life. As he buried "her", his own life also became
filled with emptiness.

Any other person would find this event to be quite strange, yet the carriage driver
is already used to all this. He only said, "It's almost dark. We still have a long road ahead.
Please come back onto the carriage, young master."
Li Xun Huan turned around, finding that there is one set of footprints besides
the carriage, coming alone from the far north, going ahead alone.

The footprints are quite deep, showing that this person has walked very much, is very
fatigued, yet still would not stop to rest.Li Xun Huan took a deep breath, said,
"I can't believe there's someone who will travel in a place like this in this kind of weather.
I think he must be a very lonely, very sorrowful person."
The carriage driver didn't say anything, only sighing in his heart, thinking,
"Aren't you also a very lonely, sorrowful person? Why do you only sympathize for other people,
but forget yourself?"

There's a lot more Pine wood under the carriage seat, so Li Xun Huan began to carve yet again.
His technique is now excellent with so much practice, because what he's carving will forever
be that one single person.This person not only filled all of his heart, but also all of his body.
The snowstorm finally stopped, but the coldness only got heavier, the loneliness thicker.
Good thing the wind also carried the sound of a person's footsteps. Although this sound
is much softer than the horses, it is the sound Li Xun Huan has been searching for.
So no matter how soft it is, it cannot escape Li Xun Huan's ears.

As he pulled up the drapes of the carriage's window, he saw the shadow of that lonely
person walking in front.This person walks very slowly, yet does not stop.
Although he heard the horses, he still does not turn around to look. He has neither
an umbrella nor a hat. The melted ice and snow dropped from his face to his neck.
He only has a single piece of thin clothing.
................... cont'd

Chapter 89: Epilogue (End)
Li XunHuan was quiet for a long while before letting out a sigh as he said slowly,
"When a person is victorious, he will always feel extremely tired and lonesome."
"Why is that?" Sun XiaoHong said.
"Because he has succeeded, he has completed all his goals. There will be nothing
left for him to look forward to. But the one who suffered defeat would actually
be driven to work even harder than before." Li XunHuan said.

Sun XiaoHong bit down on her lips and said, "Then the taste of victory isn't very sweet, is it?"
Li XunHuan fell silent for a while before he let out a smile and said, "Although victory is somewhat difficult to endure, at the very least its much better than defeat."

Success and victory can never really bring satisfaction, nor can it really bring happiness.
True happiness can only be experienced during the struggles that you encounter
throughout your life. If you've been fortunate enough to experience that kind of
happiness, then your life hasn't been lived in vain.

Pavilions were always the place where people met to say their farewells.
Parting always brought about a melancholy mood. Therefore, just the mention
of the word 'pavilion' carried a subtle sense of unhappiness.The rain had subsided,
the grass and weeds were disheveled.



Friday,March 27, 2009 at 12:46am

Sheperd's Prayer - Selection Story from Rumi's Mathnawi

Moses saw a shepherd on the way, who was saying,
“O God who choosest (whom Thou wilt),
Where art Thou, that I may become Thy servant
and sew Thy shoes and comb Thy head?
That I may wash Thy clothes and kill Thy lice and bring milk to Thee,
O worshipful One;
That I may kiss Thy little hand and rub Thy little foot,
(and when) bedtime comes I may sweep Thy little room,
O Thou to whom all my goats be a sacrifice,
O Thou in remembrance of whom are my cries of ay and ah!”
The shepherd was speaking foolish words in this wise.
Moses said, “Man, to whom is this (addressed)?”
He answered, “To that One who created us;
by whom this earth and sky were brough to sight.”
“Hark!” said Moses, “you have become very backsliding (depraved);
indeed you have not become a Moslem, you have become an infidel.
What babble is this? what blasphemy and raving?
Stuff some cotton into your mouth!
The stench of your blasphemy has made the (whole) world stinking:
your blasphemy has turned the silk robe of religion into rags.
“O Moses, thou hast closed my mouth and thou hast burned my
soul with repentance.”
He rent his garment and heaved a sigh,
and hastily turned his head towards the desert
and went (his way).

A revelation came to Moses from God—
“Thou hast parted My servant from Me.
Didst thou come (as a prophet) to unite,
or didst thou come to sever?
So far as thou canst, do not set foot in separation:
of (all) things the most hateful to Me is divorce.
I have bestowed on every one a (special) way of acting:
I have given to every one a (peculiar) form of expression.
In regard to him it is (worthy of) praise,
and in regard to thee it is (worthy of) blame:
in regard to him honey, and in regard to thee poison.

I am independent of all purity and impurity,
of all slothfulness and alacrity (in worshipping Me).
I did not ordain (Divine worship) that I might make any profit; nay,
but that I might do a kindness to (My) servants.
In the Hindoos the idiom of Hind (India) is praiseworthy;
in the Sindians the idiom of Sind is praiseworthy.
I am not sanctified by their glorification (of Me);
’tis they that become sanctified and
pearl-scattering (pure and radiant).
I look not at the tongue and the speech;
I look at the inward (spirit) and the state (of feeling).

I gaze into the heart (to see) whether it be lowly,
though the words uttered be not lowly,
Because the heart is the substance, speech (only) the accident;
so the accident is subservient, the substance is the (real) object.
How much (more) of these phrases and conceptions and metaphors?
I want burning, burning: become friendly with that burning!
Light up a fire of love in thy soul,
burn thought and expression entirely (away)!
O Moses, they that know the conventions are of one sort,
they whose souls and spirits burn are of another sort.”
The religion of Love is apart from all religions:
for lovers, the (only) religion and creed is—God.
If the ruby have not a seal (graven on it), ’tis no harm:
Love in the sea of sorrow is not sorrowful.
How the (Divine) revelation came to Moses,
on whom be peace, excusing that shepherd.
After that, God hid in the inmost heart of Moses
mysteries which cannot be spoken.
Words were poured upon his heart:
vision and speech were mingled together.
How oft did he become beside himself and how oft return to himself!
How oft did he fly from eternity to everlastingness!
When Moses heard these reproaches from God,
he ran into the desert in quest of the shepherd.
He pushed on over the footprints of the bewildered man,
he scattered dust from the skirt of the desert.
The footstep of a man distraught is, in truth, distinct from the footsteps of others:
At last he (Moses) overtook and beheld him;
the giver of glad news said,
“Permission has come (from God).
Do not seek any rules or method (of worship);
say whatsoever your distressful heart desires.

Your blasphemy is (the true) religion,
and your religion is the light of the spirit:
you are saved, and through you a (whole) world is in salvation.
O you who are made secure by God doeth whatso He willeth,
go, loose your tongue without regard (for what you say).”
He said, “O Moses, I have passed beyond that:
I am now bathed in (my) heart's blood.
I have passed beyond the Lote-tree of the farthest bourn,
I have gone a hundred
thousand years' journey on the other side.
Thou didst ply the lash, and my horse shied,
made a bound, and passed beyond the sky.

Mathnawi Book II -1720-1785
By Jalalludin Rumi
Translated by Reynold A Nicholson

Wednesday, March 25, 2009 at 7:36pm

This Morning

This morning
I walk along tea garden
Look around I only see tea trees.
Look up to the sky I only see the white sun.
Look within I see all the things
Listen to birds chirp
They circle around the tree
Listen to water flowing
Seeing the endless river stream
I think the stream is the same
But when I see again and I know
The stream is not the same
Cold wind gently touch myself
I let myself like bright mirror
Mirror of my heart always pure
Everything is mirror of me
See within is the same with outside.
Why I try to changes outside?
Look inside then outside will change
It's difficult to make all the world
be covered by red carpet
Better use shoes with red things at their bottom
I am here with time always with me
Cause time is on my pocket now
Eternity in this morning

Monday, March 23, 2009 at 10:59pm

Sitting under the tree

Sitting under the tree in the noon
We don’t expose ourselves to the sun
The breeze gently touched our body
We feel sleepy
Our eyes need be closed

Sun in this day very bright
Don’t stare the sun directly
Our eyes feel irritated
Why we didn’t see something else?
The sky is blue and clouds are white
So much more that we see actually
Why we don’t see?

Everything under the sky always change
Hearing birds chirp on the tree
Just see everything that manifest to us
We will go nowhere
Only feel this moment completely
Our purpose is purposeless
Let this feeling changes
Let another ones come
Accept all our feeling

Everything in this world is uncertain
Who can predict them accurately?
We always think and guess
We think that we know everything
Actually only assumption
Assumptions are cover our direct seeing
Learn to see simple thing
All assumptions appear but we just see
Let assumptions subside
Let things arise as they are

Sail to the end of the sight
We feel everything is perfect
This is long and straight road
It is not a matter how far we can go
Our destination is not to reaching something
Each step that we do is the end for itself
One step is perfect step
We pass this moment
Not from now to the future
But from now to now

When the sun is bright at the noon
Why longing for the sunset in the afternoon?
Why afraid the dark when sunset is ended
We always searching for the best of time
At the end when the time come we feel lacking
Lacking for everything
Everything is not substantial things
Everything is changing
All the things like flowing water
All rivers going to the sea
We realize now
We are still here
Sitting under the tree

Friday, March 20, 2009 at 7:28am

Why be Upset (Selection from The Roots of Wisdom)

When I have rank and people respect it,
they respecting my tail cap and great sash
When I am destitute and people despise me,
they are despising my cotton garb and strew sandals
If this is so, at bottom they do not respect me.
So why should I be happy?
At bottom they do not despise me.
So why should I be upset ?

Tzu Cheng Hung
The Roots of Wisdom

Thursday, March 19, 2009 at 12:00pm

Mountain Poems by Li Bai (701-762)

Question And Answer on the Mountain
You ask why I nestle in the green mountains.
I laugh but answer not - my heart is serene.
Peach blossoms and flowing waters go
without a trace.
There is another Heaven and Earth beyond
the world of man.

Alone Looking at the Mountain
All the birds have flown up and gone;
A lonely cloud floats leisurely by.
We never tire of looking at each other -
Only the mountain and I

Monday, March 16, 2009 at 8:00am

Rumi's Gift

You've no idea how hard
I've looked for a gift to bring you
Nothing seemed right
What's the point of bringing
gold to the gold mine or water to the ocean
Everything I came up with was like
taking spices to the Orient
It's no good giving my heart and my soul
because you already have these
So I've brought you a mirror
Look at yourself and remind me
You are the bird of happiness
in the magic of existence,
what a pity when you let yourself
be chained and cage

Jalaluddin Rumi

Friday, March 13, 2009 at 11:26am


Seeing puddle of the water in the night
The moon in the dark sky is cover by cloud
Still we can see the shadow of the moon on the water
The trees are wet after the rain
Seeing drops of water fall from the leaves
Image of the moon become break
We glimpse ripple on the water
Sometimes we want to see it again
But knowing in deep in our heart
We can not see it anymore
Everything look far away from us
Maybe we far away from everything
Never think about it again
Keep walking again
Leave it all behind

Beside the long road
We only see green grass and the trees
We didn’t try to count them
All the things are only one
Seeing and just only seeing
Bright under the streetlight
Listening cricket’s chirp
Always sing their melodious song
We just listening and don’t think
Listen carefully to know their meaning
Listening evening wind
Blowing the green leaves
Feel the coldness completely on our skin
Drops of water touch our face
Surprisingly we feel warm and joy in our heart
We become friend to all

We are not alone
There’s tree and sky always be our friend
We have no reason to be lonely
We look crowded people there
Always dispute each others
But sky and tree always honest
We always hope someone to give us happiness
But we realize our hope is empty
At the end we comeback to ourselves
Keep talking only make us exhaust and tired
Just listening and seeing
Back to ourselves again to see our real nature
Let hiding ourselves in the bush
Alone in the crowd but aware for all the things
So many things that we hear make us deaf
Always believe with ourselves
Don’t entertain ourselves with words
Be center again and we feel peace in our heart
Let’s walk again with everything is our friend
We are please with song of cricket
Though the rain we keep walk
We forget all empty words
Feel happy when listened song of the wind
Everything is talking with their language
We just listen and always be here
Melodious song

Thursday, March 12, 2009 at 1:16am

Across the Universe by The Beatles (Song lyric)

Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Images of broken light which
dance before me like a million eyes
That call me on and on across the universe
Thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letter box
they tumble blindly as
they make their way across the universe

Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe

Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Thursday, March 12, 2009 at 1:03am


Seeing the sunset on the hill ,
Sky and clouds are red and our hearts are red too
We can not understand why everything turns red
Red light meet with red heart
Everything is The One and we’re not thinking anymore
Just to see all this perfect manifestation with tears of gratitude
We know this moment will pass
We don’t see the sun when the night come later
We are ready to go home now
Feel the evening cold wind touch our faces
Let the night come with fullness
Dark sky and clouds are dark
Everything that happen is rainbow in our heart
Praise for the rain and always patient to see
After the rain we see the rainbow
We can not see the rainbow if we’re not accept the rain
Nothing to be afraid if the night come
Rain in the night always beautiful
We comeback to ourselves again
Everything have passed we must pass
They’ve already gone to empty place
Think all that we have done like this
Sometimes we are regret or fun about it
But we must pass this feeling too
Why we can not see their perfectness?
Our heart always singing for this wisdom words
“Nothing last forever cause everything is changing “

See again the trees and red sky
A tree look standing alone
Why we are not bored to see them?
We have beautiful heart within
All the things are beauty cause we see with this beautiful heart
If there’s beautiful things appear
Then always beautiful heart in there
We always see that they are always new for us
Happy to see them every time that we needed
Seeing the sun always makes warm in our heart
Night always come and we didn’t remember daylight again
We are here to accept whatever situation come
Don’t be deceive about everything
Sun within our heart will show us
All the good thing that we need
We just let ourselves using our beautiful eyes to see
Gray leaf flying where the wind blows
We see with amazing in our heart
Universe in the single leaf and we see alone
The crescent moon in the night is perfect

Human emotions always change like the wind
Sometimes they think more better then the others
Don be sad cause what they say and let them singing their song
Just to know that they are actually lonely and sad people
Always maintain feeling compassion to them
Don’t let them take our happiness
Always remember and repeat again in our heart
Our happiness more precious then anything
Our destiny is happiness
They cannot cage our mind
If we want free and we become free
Trust ourselves about our nature
We just grateful for all that simple things that we have
If we can see more clearly and there’s no reason to be sad
Birds always fly in the sky with happiness in their heart
Don’t distract from our path
Don’t let clouds hinder our sun
Don’t let sadness hampered our happiness
Don’t be easy to feel irritated from the other saying
When this moment come, this is time to clean our mirror
We know there’s no stain in there
Let happiness always shine in our heart
Bright and perfect

Saturday, March 7, 2009 at 6:40pm

The Turn , a poem from Rumi

Dance,when you're broken open
Dance,if you've torn the bandage off
Dance,in the middle of the fighting
Dance,in your blood
Dance,when you've perfectly free

Friday, March 6, 2009 at 10:32am


Our seeing can through everything
Nothing hinder our seeing to see
There’s no limit with our seeing
But we always see that we want to see
Always fill our mind with many assumption and prejudice
Just look open sky and everything around us
All assumption melted like ice become water

Can we see the space around us?
Space always with us but we don’t see it
Sometimes see all the things but forget to see the space
Why we’re not to see the unseen things?
Feel cold breeze and sit under the trees
Feel the warm of the sun and drink a cup cold water
Feel the raindrop touch our face and give beauty smile
Seeing always follow our mind
If we changes our mind, seeing will changes
Throwing our assumption and using our heart
Don’t be deceive with normal seeing
Look & see everything again and again
They will show their perfectness to us

There’s blue sky and clouds
But we see them only as background
We always think something more important then others
We only see the actor but we don’t see everything around him
Something look important after we have lost it
And then we already know its usefulness

Simple wish to enjoy sleep well maybe it’s too luxury for few people
We eat but we don’t feel it
We always busy with our empty thoughts
Food from our mouth going to stomach like nothing happen
We always talking to someone but actually to ourselves alone
Fill our mind with self interest thinking

We try to forget oneself
Fill our empty heart with external things
Searching and try to have everything around us
We always feel unrest in our heart
Look busy everyday and don’t know what we search can make us tired
Sometime all that glitters is not gold but we always fool ourselves

Maybe we perceive time move like the wind
At the end we standing alone to face ourselves
If we think about our life, we feel like illusion or dream
We always limited our understanding about time
Time is not things that we modify and quantify with our definition
Time is always here and now and we always be with Time
Why we always search another time to reach our happiness
If we can not happy for this time we can’t find happiness at another time
Happiness enough for happiness
Time for happiness is this time

We are like beggar with using golden bowl in our hand
Just remember ourselves that we have precious thing inside
All the truth is plain to see
Maybe our eyes open but actually closed
Still same eyes to see same clouds in the sky
But we hate rain if hinder us to going outside and make our clothes wet
We hate sun if too bright and irritated our eyes and make our body sweat
Praise for the rain and praise for the sun and feel gratitude in our heart
Rain and sun become our friend and give the fullness to us
Smile to the sun and sun give smile to us
Smile to the rain and rain give smile to us

We are always limited oneself to single perspective
Maybe it's useful for one time but another time its useless and danger to us
Why we choose our life like actor and want to hide our misery with mask
We fill tired because its difficult to remove the mask that cover ourselves tightly
We must going to the mountain to see everything around us
Perfect or not is depend with us only
Just to see perfectness of everything
Open our heart and everything will show themselves with fullness
Perfect and beauty

Monday, March 2, 2009 at 5:58am